04/28/2020

Hello to all my readers old and new. It is twelve o'clock in the afternoon and it is nice and pretty outside here in Dalton, Georgia. I just received notice that our stimulus money will be mailed out Monday and I look forward to it. The money will go to good use and help us with our homesteading. I have been up for a little while and I am working on getting motivated.

The first thing to do after posting this journal entry is to get some short stories written, one for an erotica book, and one for an online article that I earn money from. I have been writing short stories for this online community for over a year and have made some decent money from it. I have been working on an erotica book full or erotic short stories. I have over ten short stories done for it already and have at least another twenty to go.

I have been writing Bible stories for a book and I write one story a day or two depending on how long the story is. Right now I am working on the Old Testament. A second book will be the New Testament full of stories. I will be beginning my next fetish book on May first. The first one did pretty good and got some nice reviews on it from readers.

I have to start walking around the block today to get myself back in shape for working on our property. It will strengthen me plus lose a few pounds. There has been so much rain around here that it has been hard to do any walking outside. Our roommate has a treadmill on the back porch that I was using when we lived here before, but for some reason, it is not working now, so I cannot use it and have to depend on nice days for walking.

We have been playing with the dogs here lately and showing them a lot of attention since they have to stay in a bedroom most of the time except when we take them out to go potty. I will be glad to get them home where they will have six acres to run around on until we get their yard fenced in. They will have a large yard to run in and get space from each other when they need it.

Well, it is time for me to go. I hope everyone is being safe and healthy. "Happy Birthday" to everyone with a birthday today and may you have many more. Please keep Hope Station USA and the homeless in your thoughts and prayers that they can stay safe. Take care.

04/24/2020

Good morning to everyone. It is ten forty-six on this beautiful Friday morning. I am drinking my first cup of coffee and I have taken the dogs outside to go potty. My husband is getting himself dressed for the day and then I will be writing for most of the day. I finally got my addictions companion book done and published on Amazon which I am very proud of myself. It is a book full of questions and quizzes to find out if the reader or loved one may be experiencing an addiction to that category.

How is everyone doing this morning? I hope everyone is safe and well? We are doing pretty good health-wise and I am for one not scared of this virus because I believe that Jesus Christ has a hedge of protection around us. I feel that we are living in the end times and that he will soon return to collect his children. I will be waiting for him and firmly believe in Him.

Today's goal is to get some writing stuff done like another article to post on Vocal, I am working on a book for a friend's daughter, and I am still working on my Bible stories book. I also will be drawing up new plans for our house build so that I can begin making the measurements and estimating the costs plus I need to get the plans for our RV which will have a roof and deck plus a grassy front yard for the dogs to play in.

I have lots of things to do today which will keep me busy and away from everyone in the house because I like my privacy and I am an introvert which alone time is very satisfying to me. Well, I need to get going on my stuff so that my day will be full and satisfying to me. I want to wish everyone a safe and healthy day and "Happy Birthday" to all those celebrating one today. May you all have many more to come. Please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers. Take care.

04/17/2020

Good morning everyone. It is six twenty-three in the morning here in Dalton, Georgia and still quiet in the house. The dogs are still asleep with their daddy in the bed and I have to take a roommate to the doctor at eight o'clock so I had better stay awake or we will not make it, lol. Daylight has not even begun and I can barely hear the bustle of neighbors getting up for work.

Once I get my roommate back from the doctor, I will be finishing off the addictions companion book and getting it ready for publishing so that I can move on to the next book. All my books are available on Amazon and I see steady sales of them. This is a great milestone for me. I have to order some author copies soon so that I can update the website with the newer books that are published.

We have one and a half months to go before we leave to move back to our property and I am very excited to get dirty again working the six acres that we have. It is our property and we will soon have a house of our own and the dogs can run, play, and be happy again instead of being stuck in a bedroom getting fat. Some of them have picked up some weight and we can visibly see it now.

We still have not received our stimulus money yet since we are both on SSI. It will get us off to a great start on the property getting everything we need to set up for permanency. We have the RV to live in which will need some additional stuff done to it for us to live nicely and comfortably until our house is built. We begin the groundbreaking on our house in February or March when we are able to lay concrete for the foundation.

Well, I need to get my roommate up and start getting ready for his appointment. I wish for everyone to be safe and well. "Happy Birthday" to those who are another year older today and please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers. Take care.

4/15/2020

Good morning to everyone. It is eight forty-eight in the morning here in Dalton, Georgia and such a beautiful day outside. We still have not received our stimulus payment yet but that is okay because if we receive it closer to our leaving to go back to Tennessee, it will make things a lot easier for us to get things together. I am looking forward to it, but the doubt of not receiving it lingers because I owe some back taxes. It states that the CARES Act suspends those payments it still makes me unsure.

My husband is gone right now because he took an elderly roommate to his doctors' appointment this morning. I am still drinking on my first cup of coffee and have showered already this morning. It is hard to get in the shower when there are so many people living in the house. I stay in my room a lot because of all the people who seem to congregate here during the day that it affects my mental health.

Now onto the updates of our nonprofit. The coronavirus has put a damper on our fundraising efforts due to social distancing that we might have a slow year helping those who are in need. I am hopeful that during the summer we will get to go out and feed the homeless again. We now have the van for transport and it needs a little work, but we are hopeful to have at least six months of services.

Today is a writing day for me because I have had to put things off to do other things. I am working on some Bible stories from the Old Testament and also finishing up my companion book to addictions. I have three more articles to write and post and then work on some grant stuff for our nonprofit organization. Today, I will be busy and hope for no distractions.

Well, it is that time again for me to get busy. I hope that everyone has a nice and safe day. Please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers and I want to wish everyone a "Happy Birthday" that has one today. May you all have many more to come. Take care and God Bless.

Want to read some of my books look for them at amazon.com/author/brandipayne

4/10/2020

Good morning to everyone. It is eleven o'clock here in Dalton, Georgia and a very windy but sunny day outside. My apologies for not posting the last few days it has been a little crazy around here. There are too many things going on at once plus trying to keep the normal day to day stuff going. Is everyone being safe from the virus? I have tried to self-quarantine myself to my room, but it never works with people constantly calling for me to do things.
I have taken care of things for the last few days and today starts a "Harry Potter Marathon" in which I told everyone that they will probably not see me for the entire weekend because I will be watching the television. They think it is funny, but I need some time for me. I have been working on my companion book for "Addictions" and should have it done by the end of the weekend. It is full of quizzes and questions that help someone decide whether they need to seek help or not.
We are down to two months now before we head back up to our property and I am excited. I can't wait to be up there and having fun working our property and making it ready for livestock. We have to spend the rest of this year setting up the RV for permanent living because we will be building the house in February next year. That is something to be excited about.

3/11/2020

Hello everyone. It is one thirteen in the afternoon here in Dalton, Georgia. It is cloudy but not bad weather at all. I am sitting here in the dining room looking out the window as I take care of business with the computer. I worked a little late last night trying to get one of my children's books done about the miracles of Jesus Christ. I just need to do the formatting today and it will be done and up on Amazon for sale.
I have to go do some grocery shopping today and then it will be back to writing. I am going to work on another short child's book about the stories of the Bible. It is mostly a lot of the stories that aren't in original children Bible storybooks. I feel that they are all worthy to be noted and read about. I think it will take me about four or five days to get all of the old testament stories done and then that book will be finished.
I still have some pictures to do for another child's book that I have been working on. There is a ten-year-old girl who I am helping to do her first book. She is very excited about it and wanting to hold it in her hand. Her teacher agreed to let her read it to the first graders. Her book is already written, we just have to get her to finish the pictures for it.
Well, today is a new day and there is plenty for me to do. I need to wrap this post up and get busy. "Happy Birthday" to everyone who has one today. May you all have many more to come. I hope that everyone enjoys their "hump" day today and may it be filled with happiness. Please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers. Take care.

3/10/2020

Hello everyone. It is three o'clock in the afternoon and everything is quiet around the house right now. I got up with body aches and a headache which coffee took care of. I have been editing my children's book about the miracles of Jesus Christ and I should be publishing it today, hopefully. I just have to fix my edits and then format the book and put it up on Amazon. That will be an awesome moment for me to have another book up on Amazon.
Then, I have another Bible story to write up from the Bible that is going in a book of Bible stories of the old testament and stories of the new testament. I am excited about that too. I have a few short books that I need to get done and then I can go back to working on the larger books. My first goal is to get all the shorter books done and published before writing anymore larger books. I have my list ready for things to get written and I will be working on them today.
I have a full day of writing and it makes me very happy to see my books physically in my hands. I have to order copies of my books that I don't have in order to redo the cover page of my website. I am also going to take my time and get some other things done today like my shopping list for tomorrow. I have to check the sales pages and coupons for my shopping trip and list so once I am done with my doctor's appointments tomorrow I can go shopping.
Other than that, I will be writing today and making myself happy. I feel the motivation to get things done and look forward to seeing the finished products of my works. I hope everyone is enjoying their day so far and that your works have prospered. I feel blessed today to be alive and writing to all of you.
I want to wish a happy day to everyone and a "Happy Birthday" to all those who are turning another year older today. may you all have many more to come. Please keep the homeless and Hope Station USA in your thoughts and prayers. We need everyone's support in order to get things done for the mission. They need us and we need them. Take care.

3/6/2020

Good morning everyone. How are you today? I am still waking up but I have been up for a couple hours now. I have finished one cup of coffee and now I will be drinking one of my diet sodas. I have everything set up for my daily routine to get started and will be getting them done as soon as I finish this post. My husband is sitting here with me and he has been up since early this morning and should be going to nap here in a few minutes.
I have to go let the dogs out for their morning potty and then I will be finishing up the backroom clean up. It is a mess back there because of the water damage due to the fire. I had bags of clothing stored back there for the homeless which got soaking wet from the fire. Now, I have to get them thrown out and start over collecting clothing for the homeless and needy. I also have to clean up all the trash and do the floors so that it will be clean and have more room for the dogs to go out there and play.
It is time to take care of business and get things started. I do apologize for the short post today but things need to get done so that I could have a little free time for myself and my husband. I hope that everyone has an awesome Friday and "Happy Birthday" to those who turn another year older today. May you have many more to come. Please keep the homeless and Hope Station USA in your thoughts and prayers. Take care.

3/4/2020

Good afternoon to everyone. It has been a pleasant day so far with me working here on my writing and my husband out working on our roommates' truck. Yesterday was a long day because we went up to our property and bought the next lot over to us which gives us almost six acres. These six acres will be for our house, my greenhouse and gardens, and our livestock enclosures. We will be very busy this summer and will hopefully have the land ready for everything for the beginning of next year.
This year is mainly paying off all the vehicles we own and getting them registered and up to the property. Once we are up there it will be getting the RV set up with a fenced in yard for the dogs and the gas and plumbing fixtures set up. We will be using gas to cook and electricity for everything else until July when we will be setting up our first solar panel on the RV. We will be using water totes until we get our well drilled which will happen around the first of the year. I still need to find out prices for that because we will have a solar pump for the well. We have even decided to have solar power running to all the livestock enclosures for lighting since we have coyotes and other predators around. My husband had the idea to have one main switch at the house to turn on which will light up all the pens so that we can check on our animals.
I am excited and will be drawing up our house and getting the measurements to begin totaling up how much everything will cost us. The plan is for us to have our house built next year, plus all the livestock enclosures. Things are looking good so far. The yard that will be with the RV won't be as big as the house yard and I am excited to have them in their forever yard which is almost an acre by itself. That is the area we cleared this last year and the area for the house is ready to go.
Today I have gotten the house here cleaned up and our room, now it is time to get to writing and get things caught up and moving forward. I just finished looking up and taking notes on the next old testament bible story. Now, I am here writing this post and then it will be back to working on the other books that I have started. I should have a couple of books ready to be published by the end of this month. I am happy to be back writing and seeing my books go live out to the world.
We also have something to share with everyone and that is that we finally have the van for Hope Station USA. That is something I am very excited about because now we will have the transportation that we will need to go out and service the homeless with supplies and food. Once we begin getting the funding for our new program, we will be able to take the homeless back and forth to work so that they can become self-sufficient. We have many things going on this year and it is all exciting. We hope that you all will show your enthusiasm with us.
It is now time to get things moving for the day and I hope everyone is having a great day. Please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers. "Happy Birthday" to everyone celebrating today and may you all have many more. Take care.

2/29/2020

Happy Leap Year!! This day only comes around every four years and I love the extra day. I sure can use one every now and then. Well, we just got the van for Hope Station USA that will be used to transport fundraising items and eventually transporting homeless individuals to and from work. I am so excited. Now, we just need to clean it up, get it painted and reupholstered, and ready to go. I can't wait to get it on the road.
I am trying to get things back in order and in routine since the fire. It has been stressful and just coming out of the hospital with a wound on my foot doesn't help matters. I am just trying to do my best with everything and now I need to get grant proposals written to begin bringing in funding. Everything is coming out of my pocket which I have no problem with because this organization is my baby that I gave birth to.
As far as my writing is concerned, my newest book on addictions just went up for sale on Amazon and I am excited about that too. You can check it out here: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B084RWTZSK. It took me months to write it and a year researching everything. I thank webmd.com and drugs.org for keeping their information up to date. It was a beast to write, but now I must get to work on some other books that I have started. I have two books that will be book two in their series and need to get them finished. I have a lot of things going on right now and will be working diligently on them to their completion.
Things here at home are finally starting to get some normalcy going and it takes some of the stress away but I still need to keep myself healthy and mentally stable. Everyone is being respectful of the fact that I need to stay off my feet so that the wound under my foot will heal. Thursday I will know if my foot is going back to normal or if it will be placed in a cast again. I am also doing a weight loss class for my diabetes and have lost two pounds this first week and it should be even more this week since I have changed my eating habits and began exercising again.
I began this post earlier, but I got called away to check and do some things in the house like clean the kitchen, which I finished and now I can go back to my writing and get some things done. I lost the motivation for a few days plus the instructions of staying off my foot as much as possible. I love writing when left alone and having completed scheduled things which bring on the motivation for more.
I want to get things back to normal fully and get back into my routine so that everything runs smoothly. The bills got messed up for a minute but I am taking care of them, we are going up to the property office to sign a contract buying the next three acres to us so that we will own six acres and I can begin putting my farm together in June. With a greenhouse in place, I will be able to grow fruits and vegetables all year long and plant some fruit trees so that I can jar some fruit for eating. With the next three acres, I can begin clearing the land and designing the livestock enclosures.
This year will be paying off our vehicles and getting our well drilled by Thanksgiving. Then, next year, all the spare money that was used to purchase the vehicles will go towards building our house and putting the money together for my restaurant which I haven't forgotten about. There are a lot of things that need to get done and with my schedule, everything will get completed.
Well, it is time to get things moving forward, so I want to wish everyone a "Happy Birthday" that is celebrating today and for everyone else to have a blessed day with your loved ones. Please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers while we live through this cold season. Say a prayer for Hope Station USA to move forward with its plans to help the homeless. Take care.

2/17/2020

Hello everyone. It is beautiful outside here in Dalton, Georgia. The sun is shining and there are squirrels running everywhere. My dogs are out playing on the back porch while some are still eating. I got our room cleaned and the kitchen, so my day can begin with writing. I am excited that I have given away two free ebooks just this morning on my newly published book about addictions. I hope everyone gets their copy before the end of Friday.
Today I will be writing a short story for my erotica book, a children's bible storybook, an article to post online, and some of my newest book which has already been started. My day will be full of writing and I really enjoy that. It makes me happy to be writing again and that my husband supports my writing. I love him so much.
Well, this will be a short post today because I need to get some things done and I got started a little late. "Happy Birthday" to everyone celebrating today, and may you all have many more. Please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers and pray for Hope station USA to get things and the funding we need to get out there and help them. I wish everyone a blessed day and a "Happy Monday". Take care.

2/16/2020

Good Morning Everyone. It is me again. I have been up for a couple hours now and have done some free advertising for my new book which will be FREE this Monday through Friday on Amazon. I think that it will help a lot of people. It certainly took a lot of time and effort writing so that I could share and inform people about addictions.
I have fed my dogs and taken them outside and it is kind of cloudy but still a bit chilly too. I am going to go get my second cup of coffee, be right back. Okay, I have my coffee now and ready to work my day. I can now write per my schedule since the beast of a book is done. Now back to regular books with stories and fantasy.
Today, I will be setting my lists back up to get started with the regular routine. I am so looking forward to it. I haven't been on a schedule in months because of having to work on this big book to get it done. Now, I feel accomplished and the next book in that series will be about rape and abuse. That book will be the hardest thing to write because it will bring back memories that I didn't think I would have to relive, but I must in order to help those dealing with the same issues.
Well, it is time to get going and get stuff done. "Happy Birthday" to those having one today and may you all have many more to come. God bless every one of us and please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers and do something kind for someone today. Take care.

Happy Valentine's Day!!

Hello everyone. How are you today? I am doing pretty good and excited that my new book is up on Amazon. It took me months to write it and months to get the research done on it, but it is finally finished and live on Amazon for sale. I am so proud of myself and happy to be done with it. If you want to know anything about different drugs, legal or illegal, this is the book to get. You would be surprised to know about the other addictions as well like hair pulling and anime. It is full of lots of information, so get your copy now.
Now that that book is done, I can work on some of my other books that are in the making and that I have been working on since the beginning of Addictions. there are three that I am working on and they should be done around the end of this month as well. I can now get back on my writing schedule to get my books out there one at a time, but keeping up with the publishing of them is fun.
Today is one day for lovers and couples to share their love with each other. I also like the chocolate that comes with this holiday too. We have no plans except to spend the evening together and watch movies, maybe play around a bit, lol. My foot is doing okay but it is still oozing and I have a doctor's appointment with wound care on Tuesday to get a cast on my foot until it heals.
Well, I need to get back to work or go spend time with my husband watching movies. I hope everyone has a funny valentine's day and with someone they love. Please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers this winter season and may you all be blessed. Take care.
My new book "How I Survived Addictions" is now live on Amazon and everyone should check it out. https://www.amazon.com/dp/B084RWTZSK

2/2/2020

Hello everyone and "Happy Sunday". It is so beautiful outside and the temperature is not so cold. I love it. I have been working so hard lately on my addictions book that I am right there at the end of it. The goal was to have it done by the last night of January, but because other people want me on their schedule and doing things for them instead of me, it has pushed my book off a few days, but it will be done today, I guarantee it.
I have a slight headache and it is making it a bit difficult to manage writing on the computer, but I am a strong woman and headstrong to boot. I have goals and I will complete my goals with the thought that if no one likes it they can kiss my rear end. I am living life wearing a mask to play out a character that makes everyone else happy but me.
I cannot be myself in the situation we are in and I regret moving back here to live miserably. When we do take a trip back to the property, I feel so much joy and happiness, but when we leave to come back here, tensions rise and then we start arguing and it can get pretty bad to where one of us wants to throw the towel in and say to hell with it all.
Well, it is time to get the ball rolling on my writing. I still have a little bit of stuff to put into the book and then I can begin the editing and formatting. I have taken care of the dogs and got them set for a while and now it is time for me to get the job I started done. I am supposed to be two days into my next book, but thankfully, I have written almost one chapter of it, so I just need to read it and get back into the story.
I hope that everyone has a blessed day and look for my new book to be up on Amazon soon. It is full of a lot of information that can help everyone. "Happy Birthday" to all of you who have turned another year older today and may you be blessed with many more to come. Please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers because they need us. Take care.

1/23/2020

Good morning everyone. It is ten o'clock here in Dalton, Georgia and a bit chilly and cloudy outside. I have been awake for almost an hour and finally drinking a cup of coffee. my husband is still asleep and the dogs are eating their food. the rest of the house is finally awake and everyone is planning their day. I began working on the drug section of my book last night and it looks like I will on schedule to have it done at the end of the month.
AS far as how I feel this morning, I have a slight headache and feel blah today, but I cannot let this affect my day because I need to get my book done. I still have to do some more research on some things and collect pictures for the drugs, so it will be a time crunch.
I hope everyone is having a good day so far and that you are prosperous in your work. I think about everyone every day because that is who I am. I have a heart and compassion for every living being and creature. Please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers as the temperatures drop to almost freezing or below. Keep Hope Station USA in your thoughts and prayers as well that we will obtain the funding needed for our new program that will help end homelessness.
I hope that everyone is getting their free ebook from Amazon titled "Recipe for Cannibalism", I am running a free giveaway on the ebook to allow everyone to read it and then tell me what you think? Here is the link https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07ZZL847F. The free giveaway is going on through midnight Friday night EST, so get your copy now.
Well, time for me to get to work, but I am going to go shower first so that it will wake me up a little more and also help with my headache. I wish a prosperous day for everyone and a "Happy Birthday" to those who are celebrating today. May you all have many more to come. Take care.

1/22/2020

Good morning to everyone, it is seven thirty-six in the morning here in Dalton, Georgia and pretty chilly outside enough to freeze water solid. I have been u since about six forty-five and I am almost finished with my first cup of coffee. There is no one else awake in the house so, I have a chance to write peacefully. The only sound that you can here is my television and my husband and one dog snoring. All eight dogs and my husband are still in bed which I am grateful for since they woke me up at about four in the morning because they had to go potty.
About an hour from now, I will be finished writing about the regular addictions and then it will be about writing my story with addictions and then on to writing about each drug. That to me will be the easiest part of this book because I will just be listing the effects and info about each drug, so the book should be done on the last day of this month. It has taken me so long because this is a beast of a book full of a lot of information not to mention the resource section in the back and the companion book that will go with it.
I just went and got my second cup of coffee and my husband a cup as well. He is trying to wake up now and this is somewhat a section of time just for us. I love him very much. He is my soulmate I think and we might have our disagreements at times, but we still love each other. Before I forget, one of my books is on sale this week until Friday and it is titled "Recipe for Cannibalism" which is a crime thriller ad I think a lot of people would enjoy it. Here is the link to it, https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07ZZL847F. Get your free ebook before midnight Friday and have a good read.
Well, I need to get going on things so that I can accomplish things today. Please keep the homeless and hungry in your thoughts and prayers during this winter season. "Happy Birthday" to everyone celebrating one today and may you have many more. To everyone else, have a blessed and prosperous day because the weekend is fast approaching. Take care.

1/15/2020

Hello everyone. How are you doing? I need some time and space to vent over stupid shit to others but most of it is important to me. Things like for instance, my husband thinks that I am very smart, I don't see it, but he is constantly volunteering me to be google search and information for everyone. That shit drives me crazy because that is what the internet is for, not me. People who spend a lot of time on their phones should know how to look things up on google, instead of them having to do the work, my husband volunteers me to do it for everyone like I should know all the answers in the universe.
Another thing that is so minor is food. When I buy something and state that it is mine or for me to eat and when I am ready to go get it and someone else has used it all, that irks me because they were the ones who told me to inform them if something is specially bought for me. Things are really getting to me because of my environment, what's going on around me, and sometimes even the people around me annoy the crap out of me.
I feel so awkward because I am not like everyone else and have my own core values and such that it makes me stand out as being the bad guy because I don't believe what others believe, but I must conform to their ways in order to keep the peace. It feels so much like deja vu because again, I am having to put another mask on to hide who I really am. It almost kills me to have to resort to such drastic measures that change my life and who I am totally.
When does the masquerade stop and life begin? I don't know what else to do but be what everyone else wants me to be no matter if it makes me happy or not. Maybe God has a reason for this, I could only hope, or there is something bigger going on that is beyond my scope of intelligence.
It is driving issues between my husband and me and I can't help but question my own existence in this place.
Sorry for having to vent but it has got to come to a head at some point. My mental health medication can't block out everything. Thanks for listening. Have a great night.

1/8/2020

Good morning everyone. It is nice to see everyone this new year. I hope that it brings happiness and blessings to all. I just got up out of bed not long ago and drank my first and only cup of coffee. I really wasn't in the mood for coffee this morning. I am now drinking some kool-aid and writing this post. My goal to stop smoking hasn't worked yet but I have cut down with the help of the Chantix. I don't have the cravings so much, but I wanted to stop altogether but right now there is a lot of stress in my life which is causing me to keep smoking. I am working on it though.
Did everyone have a nice new year beginning? My husband and I went to bed early like we always do because it is just another date and we don't drink or do any partying, so it didn't make sense to stay awake. We heard the fireworks go off in our neighborhood and knew that it was the new year already, but I went right back to sleep.
I have taken every one of my lists and check off sheets and combined them into one simple list for everything because I felt overwhelmed trying to get everything done. I am beginning the new list right now and analyzing how long it will take me to get everything done in a day and then I will know how to revise it if I need to.
My sugar has been so bad the last couple of days that it took me to the hospital the other night because I knew that it was over seven hundred. The meter has been reading "HI" ever since. I am back taking my Novolog to help with the high sugars and I know a lot of it is due to stress. When we moved from here and went to our property, living there my sugars were running perfect and I even had a few episodes of HYPOglycemia and was not having to take insulin. Now, being back here in this house or town has made my sugars go uncontrolled again.
I have been keeping an eye on my Amazon reports and I have been selling books slowly due to not paying for any ads yet because of the lack of money. I have been running ads on Twitter and Facebook for as posts until I can get our bills back to normal and be able to afford to pay for ads. I have ads up on free sites and I monitor them casually. I have half of my addictions book done and instead of making it two books, I will just leave it as one book with a companion book and have it set to be finished at the end of this month.
Well, it is time to get other things done with my list so I will say goodbye for now. "Happy Birthday" to everyone celebrating today and may you have many more to come. Please keep the homeless in your thoughts and prayers during this cold season. Take care.

12/22/2019- Happy Birthday to Me

Hello everyone. Today is my birthday and I am forty-nine years old. I do not look or feel that old. It is my day off from house cleaning and cooking, so they need to figure something out for dinner. I have been sitting here with my husband since we got up. I have a plan to relax and write today and nothing else. I have no more birthday cake left and don't know what else to do.
I have plans to make cookies over the next couple of days and also watching my sugar which has been running good numbers. My husband takes really good care of me and makes sure that I stay on my medication and do what I am supposed to do. I love him for that because no one really cared about me so much.
I will be working on my addictions book today and hope to have it completed by the end of the month and ready for publishing on Amazon. I feel confident that my books will help people and make their lives better. It is a part of me and my life with addictions. If I can overcome them then I know that anyone can overcome them with just a little support from friends and family.
Well, I will let you go from here and I want to enjoy the rest of my day. "Happy Birthday" to others who join me in celebration of our day. For the rest of you, I hope that you have a blessed day and many more to come. Please join me in keeping the homeless in our thoughts and prayers. Take care.

11/26/2019

Good morning to all. It is nine twenty in the morning here in Dalton, Georgia and a bit chilly outside. I have only been up long enough to drink a cup of coffee. My husband has been up since about four-thirty and has laid back down for a bit. I am going to get back into my writing this morning. I have twenty-nine more regular addictions to get through before even touching the drugs. It is going to be a beast of a book full of information plus my story with addictions.
I also have to work on some more illustrations for the next children's book that is already written and ready to go. I have given away several of the last ones as a free book promotion. I am enjoying the time spent in writing the children's books because it gives me a break away from the real books that are long and full of a story.
Thanksgiving is close and I am not doing the cooking this year which is a change because I have done all the cooking since two thousand and eleven. Even when it is just me and the dogs I cook a lot of food that gives me leftovers for days. I enjoy cooking and that is why I want to open a restaurant and share my cooking with others.
Well, I need to get started on my book and I hope that everyone has an awesome day. "Happy Birthday" to you if you are another year older today. Please keep the homeless in your prayers. Many are sleeping outdoors because most shelters are at maximum capacity. Take care.