Wednesday, July 18, 2018

7/18/2018

Morning everyone, it is four twenty in the morning and I am up this early due to taking a late nap yesterday evening. It is okay though because everyone else is asleep and it is nice and quiet. I am hurting a little this morning in my neck and shoulder area but I can function a little. Mentally I am doing better than yesterday. I was a little unstable yesterday and did not feel safe enough to make it to my therapy appointment so I rescheduled.

I was not able to complete my daily goal sheet for the day but I did manage to get a lot of other important things done. I will complete my goal sheet today since I am up so early. I am looking forward to the day and getting some more things done to help increase books sales as well as my nonprofit stuff.

I have fed the dogs and it is hard to keep them from chasing and barking after ghosts outside, lol. They are very good guard dogs but sometimes they can take it overboard, but I love them anyway. I am on my first cup of coffee this morning and see this as a two or three cup morning since it being early and still dark outside.

I will be getting a chapter if not more done on my books today and two short stories done for my other two books. One will be a freebie for signing up for my weekly newsletter and the other will go up on Amazon.

I sat down the other day and started throwing together a design for our house and hopefully will soon begin the building process. I look forward to having our own house will a lot of room for the dogs to run. We will be having a mini farm with the goal of becoming self-sufficient. We will have our own meat, a garden for fruits and vegetables, a well for water, and solar panels for electricity. That is the plan for our future and if everything goes right, we will complete that goal as well.

Well, it is time to publish this post and begin my day with writing. I hope everyone enjoys their "Hump Day" because it means the weekend is close, so take care and remember to love everyone. Take care until tomorrow.

Tuesday, July 17, 2018

The Unknown Killer

He felt the coldness of the blade as it touches his throat slowly
slicing away at it. His hands tied tightly behind his back as he
could see each burst of dark red blood from his throat with
every heartbeat. He is being held by his hair as he feels his
body grow cold. He knows he will die and the last thing he will
hear is the creepy high-pitched laugh from behind him.


His eyes begin to droop as he is slowly losing consciousness.
His body going limp as his attacker releases him from his grip.
He looks down as he falls forward into a pool of his own blood on
the cold concrete floor. His face covered with blood as he takes
his last breath. He is now dead and gone to a better place.

A few weeks later, neighbors have called the police to report a
horrific odor coming from an abandoned building. When they
arrive, they too can smell the aroma of death that fills the
neighborhood air. They begin their search of the old creepy
building. Several officers are on scene and do a sweep of the
house one room at a time.

Clearing each room as they go, two officers find a hidden door
that leads down to the basement. Upon opening the door, the
foul odor slaps them in the face as they cover their noses to
visit the dismal dark room under the house. Walking slowly
down the creaking old steps taking care not to fall through
them. This house is so old that anything can be assumed and
expected.

Once in the basement, they shine their flashlights to each
corner of the concrete-walled room seeing mold and spiders
everywhere. As they walk through the darkness, the vulgar
smell gets stronger until one of them happens to kick into
something soft and flimsy. When shining his flashlight down in
front of him, he sees the deteriorating body in a thick pool of
drying blood.

He looks upon it in horror because this is the first dead body he
has ever seen. He calls his partner over who just happens to
slide into the pool of blood which was not seen. His shoes
covered in the deceased body’s blood he too looks upon it with
the feeling of nausea in the pit of his gut. After viewing it, they
finally call to everyone else on their findings and the location.

A few minutes later, several other officers cautiously make
their way down the creaky stairs. Once standing with their
fellow officers, they peer down with flashlights at the gruesome
sight of a cold-blooded murder victim. An officer calls over his
radio to send the coroner for a pickup and gives the address
and location in the house. Several officers feeling faint and full
of nausea make their way back up the stairs and outside to get
a breath of fresh air.

As they spoke among themselves, two detectives pull up in a
gray Ford Crown Victoria. Getting out of the car, they make
their way past the crime scene tape and into the abandoned
house. Hearing the call over the radio for the coroner, the
detectives know the location inside the house where the victim
is located. Following the directions, they find the doorway
down to the basement and begin their descent. Not standing
the vulgar odor, they stop to apply a cream under their noses
to prevent from smelling it.

They continue their way down feeling the decrepit steps
beneath their feet. Feeling them give and wondering if they
were going to make it down into the basement. After stepping
from the last step, the two detectives walk over to where the
victim lies. Officers have placed several flood lights around
giving light to the dark damp room.

The coroner has already arrived and is looking over the
deceased body taking samples while the officers walk the
perimeter searching for any clues or evidence of who could
have done this. The detectives begin asking questions of the
coroner of what happened and how the man died.

After taking a sample from the victim’s hair, he looked up to
the detectives and informed them that his throat was slit, and
he suffocated on his own blood not to mention the mass blood
loss which lay on the floor. The time of death was approximately
two to three weeks ago and that the body has laid here for
some time. He suffered his ordeal greatly.

The detectives looked at each other and one made the
statement that this is the third murder in five weeks and all
with the same modus operandi. The victims’ throats slit,
and they were left in old abandoned houses. They now know
that they had a serial killer on the loose and needed to find him
before another person is killed.

They watched as the victim was sealed in the coroner’s black
bag and hauled up the stairs to be loaded in the van and taken
to the morgue where the other bodies are. The detectives
questioned all the officers to see if any clues were found in that
damp basement? No one found anything because of the
decomposition of the body and no murder weapon was found.

When ready to leave the room and head back upstairs, the
basement door had partially closed, and something was seen
on the back of the door. One of the detectives closed the door
to expose the number three written in blood on it. They had
verification now that it is a serial killer who left the number of
victims he has killed.

The manhunt was now on. Everyone convened back at the
police station after sealing up the house as a crime scene. They
sat and everyone including the detectives went back over all
three case files of the murders to see if anything could be
construed as a clue to who this madman was. Nothing made
sense and they could not put all the pieces together to identify
the killer. So far, he was labeled the unknown killer.

Everyone did all they could and scrambled around trying to find
him. Meanwhile, the killer now kidnapped two young women.
He picked them up at a college campus each walking alone back
to their dorms. Both chloroformed and rendered unconscious
to be taken to a farmhouse that had not been lived in years.
Both girls, in their twenties, were tied both wrists and ankles
with steer rope that was inescapable.

His interest was not in sexually harming them but to see them
die slowly and gasping for their last breath. Now he had moved
up to having another victim watch as he slices the young tender
throat of her companion. Something that would terrify the
other victim into fighting and struggling for her life. They could
not see the face of their abductor which was hidden partly in
the shadows but could hear that creepy spine-chilling laugh as
he took a very sharp blade to the throat of the young college
girl.

Her companion in all this could see the glimmering light of the
steel blade that became covered in blood as he held the girls
head back by her hair while almost decapitating her from his
arousal. Her eyes and mouth wide open screaming as every
inch of her skin was being sliced like melted butter. She looked
down at her blood pouring from her body onto the floor.

The other victim having to turn her head to keep from seeing
the gruesome event knew she was next. While he lavished in
his deed of killing the one college student, the other was trying
to work at loosening the rope from her fragile wrists. Once he
was done and slowly letting her hair slip from his fingers into
the pool of blood, looked over at the other seeing her struggle
to get loose.

Not a sound came from him except that gory laugh which made
the hair on her arms and neck stand on end. He walked over to
his other victim grabbing her by her hair and dragging her over
to the dead body on the floor and pushing her into the pool of
blood. She screamed out louder thinking that she would be
heard but the sounds of crows muffled her noise.

He lifted her to her knees in front of him while standing behind
her. He took the blood-soaked blade and waved it in her face
drawing more fear from his young victim. He pulled her head
back stretching her neck to show off those beautiful arteries
which he was about to filet. She could hardly breathe in that
position which made it harder to scream out.

Then she felt the cold steel slide across her neck not knowing
that her throat had been cut yet until she felt the warm fluid
soak her blouse and making it even harder to breathe. All she
could do was gurgle on her own blood as she felt the cool air
lightly blow into her exposed flesh.

The last thing she heard before taking her last breath was that
gory high-pitched laugh of her captor. She felt herself go cold
as her blood ran from her body. The last few images in her mind
flashed as she drifted away in her captor’s hand. He then
dropped her limp body to the floor in her own pool of blood. He
took his knife and used her dry clothing to clean that cold steel
knife.

After his fun was over and he cleaned his knife, he felt the
satisfaction of killing his victims and it was time to search out
new ones. So, he grabbed his things and went back to the van
to leave that farmhouse where his last victims lay on a
blood-soaked floor. He did wonder for a moment how long it
would be before they were discovered being that this house
had not been lived in for many years. It only lasted a moment
before his van pulled away driving down the dirt path to the
nearby road.

It had days before anyone at the college noticed that the girls
were missing before calling the police. When they showed up at
the college, they noticed that the girls hadn’t been to their
dorm lately and the search was on. They put out a bulletin to
find these girls and when the detectives got word they knew
in their minds that they were the next victims they would find.

Since the last victim was found in an abandoned house, they put
out the word to check all abandoned houses and buildings for
the missing girls. As the search went on, the detectives and
officers searching for the girls were becoming exhausted, but
they had to find them.

It had been a month of searching before the call came in that
two decomposed bodies were found in an old farmhouse at the
edge of the city. The detectives grabbed their jackets and things
hurrying out of the police station to their car. After getting in,
the detective driving fumbled to get his keys due to the
thought of finding these two girls deceased.

They headed out to the farmhouse and pulled up the dirt path
which was the entrance to the farmhouse. They pulled up to
the front yard and turned off the ignition while staring at this
old decrepit house. The reporting officer was there and walked
up to their car informing them that the girls were inside. He
informed them that it was a gruesome sight and to cover their
noses due to the smell of decaying flesh.

The detectives got out of the car and walked up to the house
walking towards the front door. Before getting to the door, they
could smell the stench of decay. Covering their noses, they
walked in the front door and headed for the room where they
were found.

As they got closer to the room, the stench got worse. As they
entered the room, they saw two decaying bodies almost
unrecognizable. They could tell it was two females and
automatically they knew it was the two college girls that were
missing.

As they began working the crime scene, the coroner arrived. He
looked at the bodies and informed the detectives that it was,
in fact, two young females. He said it looked like they had
been there a while. The detectives already knew the timeline
of when the girls went missing. It was the killers second and
third victims, so they automatically knew they had a serial killer
making his way through the city.

They watched as the coroner bagged up the bodies to carry
them away. It was a sad day for the parents of the victims who
showed up at the scene as they watched the bodies of their
daughters being carried from the house. One arm of the victims
fell from the bag that was partially zipped and the bracelet on
the wrist told the parents which bag their daughter was.

The parents broke down crying as their daughters were being
put in the coroner’s van and taken off. The detectives walked up
to the parents and informed them they will catch their
daughters’ killer. One of the officers came from the house and
told the detectives that no trace of the killer was found. There
were no clues as to who he was.

One of the officers outside called the detectives over to show
them the tire tracks that he had found and then they called a
specialist with tire markings to make a cast of the tire track to
use in their evidence. If anything, they could track down what
kind of vehicle he is driving and then move to catch him.

As the detectives got back inside their car to go back to the
station, one made the comment that they had an unknown killer
on their hands. The other agreed and informed him that they
need to work harder at catching him. Most of the officers stayed
behind searching for any more clues as to who it could be.

As the detectives made it back to the station, they were
informed that the specialist had made a cast and was on his way
back to the station with it. When he arrived and walked into the
office of the detectives, he right away told them that it was a
van. They took the cast and asked the specialist if he knew what
kind of van, so they could start searching for it. He stated that it
was some sort of cargo van because of the weight it took to
make that tire track.

With this information, now the detectives had something to go
on. They began their search for all cargo vans in the city, but it
seemed a little troublesome because there were many cargo
vans in the city. They decided to print up the list and hand it out
to everyone so each officer could search for so many of them at
one time.

While the detectives worked the case, the unknown killer was
searching out his next victim. He drove around looking for
someone who is alone and, in some place, less public. He
searched alleys and dead-end roads. No one was around due to
the news coverage of the killer and for everyone to stay inside
if they have no place important to be. They also stated that if
any person had to leave their homes to go with someone else.

The killer was more aroused now that they were searching for
him and that made his search more fun. He drove around and
finally found someone sitting in a park where there was no one
else around. He noticed the man when he got up was blind and
more easily to subdue.

He walked up to the man who was walking with his feeler stick
and asked if he needed any help? The blind man stated that he
was making his way to the store a block down from the park.
The killer offered to take him, but instead of walking him
towards the store, he walked him right up to his van and then
hit him with chloroform knocking the man out and placing him
inside his van.

As he walked around to the driver side he gave out his creepy
laugh with arousal knowing he had another victim. He drove
around heading for the city limit and crossed over into another
county looking for an abandoned house to play with his victim.
He thought going into another county would set the detectives
off his trail.

After driving about five miles into the neighboring county, he
finally found a house that was condemned. He pulled up into
the driveway and then over the grass to hide his van around
back. Once he was parked, he got out of the van and walked
around to the side door to get his victim out. The man was
coming to and began panicking as to who had kidnapped him.

He felt strong hands grab him as he let out a yell for anyone
nearby to help him, but this house was a country house with
acreage and the nearest neighbor was miles away. The killer
took him inside the house through the back door. There he
threw his victim to the floor before tying him up at the ankles
and wrists. The blind man began pleading for his life and all he
heard was that gruesome laugh of the killer.

After laying on the floor for a few minutes, the killer picked him
up and placed him on his knees while the blind man again pled
for his life. The killer laughed as he drew out his shiny steel
blade and rubbed it against the blind man’s face. This frightened
the blind man as he now began to cry for his life and prayed
to God.

It was a few minutes before the blind man felt the cold hand of
the killer placed on his forehead. He pulled his head back as far
as it would go and removed the glasses the blind man was
wearing because the killer wanted to look into his eyes as he
bled over himself and took his last breath.

Seeing the tears trickle down his face made the killer more
aroused with his sadistic homicidal ways. As the man cried and
pled for life, the killer took his blade and very slowly cut the
blind man’s throat from one ear to the next making sure to hit
the carotid arteries.

As the killer slowly sliced away, the man who was pleading for
his life began gurgling on his own blood never finishing his
sentence. The killer began laughing as the blood squirt from
the blind man’s throat. The blind man felt his artery cut and
then felt his own heartbeat as each ounce of blood left his body.
His eyes had the look of surprise as the killer made the knife
end his cut over the other carotid artery.

By now, blood was rushing out and the blind man became
weaker as he slowly fell over towards the ground but still held
up by the killer. The killer watched his face as the blind man’s
eyes began to roll up inside his head.  He was ready to take his
final breath and the killer was there to watch. It was his
pleasurable moment to see how death takes a person because
all deaths are not the same. If they were, it would get boring
and the killer would have to find something else to do
instead of killing.

When the last drop of blood poured from his neck, the killer
dropped his body to the floor. He then covered him up with an
old blanket that he found in the house. While standing over the
blanket-covered body, he took a piece of the man’s clothing
and wiped the blood from his knife. Once it was clean, he put it
away in its sheath attached to his belt and then took one last
look at the covered body on the ground while letting out that
creepy high-pitched laugh that all his victims heard before dying.

He left the man there and walked back out to his van getting in
and pulling away down the driveway. He was very aroused by
this killing because the man was blind and could not see the
terrible things happening to him. It made the killer thrilled and
was back out looking for his next victim.

About a month later, the detectives got a phone call from the
neighboring county who had been keeping tabs on their killer.
He notified them that they just found a body that could be
related. This peaked the detective’s interest, so he agreed to
meet the sheriff at the crime scene.

The detective grabbed his things relating to the case and his
partner and walked out of the police station heading for their
car. They got inside, buckled up, and were on their way to the
next county over. It was going to be about a fifty-mile drive,
so the detectives began reviewing the case as they drove.

Once the detectives arrived on the scene, they met the sheriff
who briefed them on everything before going into the old
country house and seeing the victim. Once inside, they saw
how old and decrepit the house was. The floors creaked, there
were spider webs everywhere and cracked and chipped paint
on the walls. It looked like the house hadn’t been taken care of
in a long time.

When they reached the room where the victim was, they saw
the old blanket that he was covered with and asked for it to be
analyzed for any DNA possibly from the killer. The sheriff
had it sent off immediately while they continued their
investigation. The sheriff informed the detectives that the
victim was a blind man and probably didn’t see this coming.

The detectives noticed the knife wound on his neck and knew
it well to be that from the same killer they were looking for.
Now, they knew that the killer was moving further out and
making the search of a wider area. One of the detectives got on
the radio and called back to the office informing them that the
killer has entered another county and to widen the search area
and put out a curfew.

Meanwhile, the killer was parked in a truck stop taking a nap
when he heard the broadcast come over the radio about the
all-out curfew set in all neighboring counties. He became more
aroused by the fact that now he was a wanted man in several
counties. It wasn’t his main goal, but it was nice to know that
everyone wanted him.

He got himself woke up and dressed and felt like doing another
killing just to satisfy his craving for the day. Everyone knew him
there at the truck stop, so he couldn’t just nab someone there
without being seen and reported. He got behind the wheel and
turned over the van to hear its engine roar which gave him the
spunk to go out searching.

He filled up his gas tank right there at the truck stop before
leaving and headed out in the opposite direction of his last kill.
It made him excited with pleasure to know that it became a cat
and mouse game with law enforcement. He headed out and
once he made it to the next county over, he searched out his
next victim.

He drove for about two hours before finding a young girl
somewhere in her teens walking alone down the sidewalk.
He pulled up beside her and asked where she was headed?
The young girl told him that she was going over to a girlfriend’s
house and that she was late. He offered her a ride stating he
was going in that direction and that she wouldn’t be so late if
he takes her.

The young girl agreed and jumped inside the van. As they drove,
he offered her a soda from his special cooler which contained
knock out drugs. She took the soda and began drinking it and
within a few minutes became very groggy. She started talking
gibberish and not making any sense when he pulled over
along the side of the road.

He got out and walked around to her side of the van opening
her door and began to tie up her feet and wrists. There was
no struggle from her being that she was almost knocked out. He
then pulled her toward him throwing her up over his shoulder
and taking her to the side door where no one would see him
put her in the back of the van.

Once he had her inside the back, he closed the door and got
back inside the driver’s seat and started off to find someplace
private. He drove out of the area of her kidnapping and drove
for the outskirts of town where he was sure to find somewhere
vacant. He looked back and noticed she was sleeping soundly
and continued to drive.

He finally found a construction site where no one was working
because of it being the weekend and decided that this might be
fun. His mind was becoming more sadistic and cruel the longer
he kept killing. There were nice homes already up and covered
and decided to check one of them out.

He parked his van around the back of one of the houses and got
out. He walked from house to house looking for that special
spot for his craving. At last, he found it, a house that was almost
completely ready for interior painting. This is where his victim
will be found.

Now that he had a place, he went back to the van to claim his
victim. She was still unconscious in the back of the van, so he
picked her up and carried her to the house that he found. He
took her inside closing the door behind them and took her to an
upstairs bedroom with no carpet or flooring yet.

He left her tied and placed her on the floor while he searched
out some items that he needed. He found a paint try, a paint
roller, and some plastic to which he was going to do some
decorating. He took these items back to the room where she
laid.

The young victim had not moved an inch and he had to make
sure she was still alive by placing his fingers on her carotid
artery to make sure blood was still pumping and that there was
a heartbeat. Sure enough, she was still alive just out cold.

He grabbed his victim and knew that she was not going to wake
up so easily but knew he had a time constraint for the location
he was in, so he got started anyway. He pulled her up to her
knees and while holding her, he kicked the paint try beneath
the front of her. As he held her by her hair, he used his other
hand to stroke the softness of it and ran his hand across her
soft face.

He thought to himself that it was such a shame he had to kill
her, but his mind wanted this craving satisfied. So, he reached
to his side and took out his cold-steeled knife from its sheath
and wiped it across his hand to make sure it was clean from
dust. Then, as he held her head back seeing those veins
pumping her young blood through them, he took his knife and
began slicing her frail skin from one side to the other which
was his signature mark.

Only this time, when her blood began to pour from her throat,
he leaned her forward catching her blood in the paint tray.
Once the tray was filled, he laid her head down on the concrete
floor while he took the tray and paint roller and began painting
the walls with the young vital fluid. It was almost a sick prank.

Once he ran out of blood, he looked over to his victim to see
that she still had a little left oozing from her arteries, so he
walked over and tried to fill the tray up again with her blood.
As he painted the new walls with her blood, he laughed that
creepy laugh as if to enjoy it thoroughly.

Once he was done, he didn’t even bother covering her up but
did cut the ropes free at her ankles and wrists. He placed her
so angelic on the floor as if she was only sleeping. He then left
the paint roller in the blood covered tray and began walking out
of the house. He climbed into his van and began driving out of
the construction site and headed for the freeway.

He drove up onto the freeway never to be seen or heard from
again. Some wonder if it was that young girl that made him
disappear, or he just kept going to places unknown only to be
the unknown killer.

7/17/2018

Good morning everyone. it is going on eight thirty here this morning and I am finding it hard to wake up and get motivated this morning. It is cloudy outside and that doesn't help any because I want to sleep when it has been raining. I am hurting a bit in my neck and will be getting my injections next week which I can't wait.

I did manage to get some things done yesterday and will continue to get things done no matter what is thrown at me. I am getting tired of being drawn away from what makes me happy and will now take matters into my own hands. I am always putting my stuff off for others and it has got to stop. It sets me farther and farther back from my goals and sometimes you just can't catch up.

I seem to have to constantly rearrange my writing calendar to make changes so that I can make up for lost time and it wastes a lot of paper so I will be changing it one last time so that my goals are accomplished correctly. I even moved all of my doctor's appointments back to the mornings so that they don't interfere with my writing time.

Last night I got my script done for my video and podcast introductions and will hopefully be putting them up today as well. I have a lot to do and it just seems to not be enough hours in a day to get them done, so I have to prioritize from here on with what is most important and go from there.

Well, I have a lot of things to get done this morning and will need to end this post here, but first I need to make an update with everyone. Blogger seems to be having some issues and will not allow me to republish my Crime Thrillers page so I will be posting my Crime short stories here on this page until it gets corrected. So, the next posting after this will be my current short story that I just finished writing for that genre.

I will be posting a short story every three days for a different page so check them out and please leave some feedback on them. It happens to be that time again for me to stop here and get my day started, so I wish everyone an awesome day and be blessed. Take care.

Monday, July 16, 2018

7/16/2018

Good morning everyone. It is such a cloudy day here and I can feel the rain coming but it still makes it a great day for me to stay in front of my computer and work on my books. I feel amped up this morning and I have already run to the bank to make a deposit, stopped by the grocery store to get a few things for dinner, and dropped off some prescriptions for a morning pickup tomorrow. I am moving this morning and it is Monday, what is really going on? :)

Today's goals are going to be met come hell or high water and I feel pretty good about it. I do have to make something later today and write a letter for my therapy session in the morning, but it will get done also. I feel like running right now and I don't understand why. I know a lot of you are dragging out of bed or dreading the day because it is Monday, but I have not felt like this in a long time.

My husband is still lying in bed awake watching television and it is eleven o'clock in the morning, go figure. I spent the weekend watching the "Harry Potter Marathon" and look forward to next week when "Shark Week" comes on. I feel like I will be finishing one book by Wednesday and the other could possibly be done by the same day. I am also working on a "freebie" book as well which already has a few short stories written for it.

Sorry if I seem to be rambling on but that is how much energy I have today to get things done and I will use it in a positive manner. The dogs have just as much energy today with them running all around the room playing with each other. I think I could have a book written a day with as much energy as they have, lol.

I had a new short story ready for posting on the site but using Word threw the whole blog page template off, so I am having to make some adjustments to it, but it will be up today for sure. Well, time to get flying with things. I wish everyone a happy Monday and a prosperous one. We all need a little money in our pockets. So have a great day and take care.

Sunday, July 15, 2018

7/15/2018

Good morning everyone. It is Sunday and a day of rest for many. I didn't have so much luck yesterday at the flea market but I did hand out plenty of my author brochures and spoke with people. A couple of them were interested in audiobooks, so I sent them to my Amazon page since two of my books are in audiobook format. In all, it was a good day even though I didn't sell anything. Just knowing that I got out there and got my name and books into the hands of people was a good day.

I am not going to the flea market this morning so I will be staying home and working on finishing my books and some crafts I have been working on. I will also be setting up some scripts for my author videos to get them started not to mention some podcasts. I will be looking at doing a podcast every week and maybe a video or two a week. I want everyone to get a chance to read my books and either learn from them or get some pleasure from them.

My husband is in a mood this morning because he is trying to wake up to go with our roommate to the flea market and the dogs are telling him that they are awake by running around the room and back and forth out the back door barking at nothing. The tiniest one is so cute trying to be a big dog and barking at things.

I went out and got my newspapers from the curb and took my coupon inserts out and will be getting those done today as well. I love couponing and saving money and I already have a full six-foot shelf filled with condiments, hygiene, and laundry stuff. I have the whole bottom shelf filled with two-liter bottles of soda for the month. It doesn't look like much but it helps us save for other things.

I will be working on sketching out our house today. We will be soon buying some land and building our own house. So we get to design our house and make it the way we want it. I find this to be fun because I want something unique so I will be designing it today just to get started. Our goal is to have a mini farm and becoming self-sufficient.

Well, a new day has begun and my first cup of coffee down so I will leave you to rest today and get ready for a new work week. Thank you so much for following my webpage and reading my posts. I appreciate all my friends and family, old and new. So, have a great and blessed day. Take care.

Saturday, July 14, 2018

7/14/2018

Good Morning to all my friends and family, even the new ones. How are we feeling this beautiful Saturday morning? I have been up since four o'clock and showered and packed the car for the flea market. Now I am enjoying my coffee with my wonderful husband before doing my hair and getting there early to get a good table. 

I am feeling very positive this morning about meeting and talking with people and getting my brand out there. I have three different books to sell and next month will have five or six. I have been working diligently on getting the next two books done and can see the light at the end of the tunnel on finishing them for next month.

Getting into a routine can sometimes be hard, but it will soon happen and that's when more books will be written. Granted, a lot of my books will be novellas but that is okay too. I just can't see myself doing anything else but writing. It is good therapy for me and it helps me deal with a lot of things as well as giving people something good to read that is enjoyable.

On my "How I Survived Prostitution" book, the people I gave a copy to for reading stated they liked it and that it was heartfelt. I have been getting good feedback on all my books because I don't fluff them with words and don't beat around the bush about anything. I make them easy to read and not full of long, hard to pronounce words.

Well, it is time to get ready to head out the door. I wish everyone an awesome Saturday and a blessed one. Wish me luck for a good bookselling day. Take care.

Thursday, July 12, 2018

7/12/2018

Good afternoon friends and family, old and new. How are you today? It is almost the weekend and I know everyone is anxious for it to get here? My apologies for not posting yesterday, after the doctor's appointment and grocery shopping and running some other errands, I was not feeling well mentally and needed to lay down in a quiet, dark room.

On a brighter note, I just got my letter from the diagnostics place that my mammogram was normal and there were no malignancies. That made me feel better to know and now I can wait another year unless things change. Today was a little weird being that when I got up from a restlessness night, I felt the sudden urge to stay near my husband for some reason. I could not put my finger on it, so he is staying close to home today and an eye on me.

I will try more writing today and hopefully get closer to having one done. I was just looking at websites for cover images and pricing and found several that were intriguing. It will be fun when the time comes to format my books and set up the covers. I am really anxious but will take my time writing and editing and should be on schedule to publish two or three books in August. I will have a fourth book which will become a short story freebie or a short story to one of my characters, I haven't decided but would like some feedback in the comments of which you think it should be?

Well, I need to get going to accomplish my daily goals and wish everyone the best day ever. Take care.

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

7/10/2018

Hello everyone. how are you? I am doing good this morning considering I got to sleep in a little. I am now ready for my day. Taking to you guys first makes my day go better, so you are my priority. I was not nauseous last night after taking meds and skipping the one that I think that was causing me to throw up every night. So, I know that it is too strong for me and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow morning to let her know and to correct my dosage.

I stayed up until about midnight last night working on one of my books and got quite a bit done. I will be finishing off the chapter today after I clean this back room/ office, lol. It is my day to clean the house and then to clean this room before making any videos. It will also feel awkward because I don't have my dentures yet and will be toothless, lol.

Sorry, I had things to do and got stuck doing them, so now it is 10 o'clock at night and I just finished organizing and cleaning the back room where I am now. I have to have organization and cleanliness to be comfortable. well, I have some things to get done and wish everyone a good restful night. Take care.

Monday, July 9, 2018

7/9/2018


Good evening all and how was our first day back to work? My first day of the week was okay at the start and then went downhill from there. I ended up with a really stiff neck which caused a moderate headache on the right side of my head, so I feel a little miserable right now, but always look forward to communicating with you and being myself.

I manage to get a few things done today and as soon as I finish here I will be working on one of my books. I am anxious to finish them and begin the editing process. See, whether I feel good or not I always try to be here and you, my friends and family make me feel better and forget my pain.

I just finished posting some ads on my published books and ran some posts on my social media sites to get the word out about my already published books. I will also post updates about the new books on my website where you can actually purchase an autographed book from me personally.

Tomorrow, I will also be checking in on doing some promo videos for Youtube, my site, and will post them on social media. I am fearful of being on cam
era but I think I can do it and have to get over my fear, right?

My weekly goals will be getting one book done, possibly both, printing them up and then going over them with the editing process. I will keep everyone updated and let you know the publishing date of both of them. Well, it is time to go get to work and I hope everyone has a great night and remember to love each other. Take care.

Sunday, July 8, 2018

7/8/2018

Good evening everyone. How was everyone's weekend? I do apologize for not posting yesterday but had every intention to do so. I even started my post but got called to do other things and the day slipped by me. So, here I am completely exhausted from a day of multitasking. I was mowing the yard, cleaning the house, and doing laundry all at the same time. Figure out how I managed that, lol. What I did was go out mow a little, come in and wash some dishes, change the laundry over just to go back out and mow some more.

My husband was off helping someone, but as soon as he got back and saw me mowing the yard, he took over. We have been married going on five years and we have only had one really stressful disagreement and that was about who was going to move the yard, lol. I did it for so long by myself and working from home, it was my only form of exercise besides running to the store at the end of the block.

I have slipped by one day on my schedule and should be able to catch everything up over the next two days because we have no appointments until Thursday, thank God. There is one week a month where we have appointments every day of the week and sometimes two appointments on the same day. It does get crazy every now and then.

So, I will be here every day to keep everyone informed of how my day is going and what progress I have made in catching up and how far along my writing has gone. For now, I will be sitting here writing and getting the catch up started. So, to everyone, I wish a very good night and get some rest because the work week begins again tomorrow for most. Take care.

Friday, July 6, 2018

7/6/2018

"Good morning!" How is everyone doing this morning? it is going on eight o'clock here and I have been up since seven thirty. I got up before my alarm clock went off. I am doing pretty good this morning even with my scheduled mammogram this morning. I really look forward to that. 😀 There is just something about my breasts being squished in a machine that makes me smile. I am glad it is only once a year. It feels like the machine is ripping my skin off of my chest.

Other than that, I finished my schedule of things yesterday which makes me happy. I finally got things done, so now I just need to keep it up. I will be posting a short story today which my goal is to post one every three days since they are around five thousand words.

This will be a short post because I need to get ready to leave for my appointment. I wish everyone an awesome Friday and I will post again tomorrow. Take care.

Thursday, July 5, 2018

7/5/2018

Good morning to all my friends and family, even my new ones. It is eight o'clock here this morning and I am having my first cup of coffee. It rained here yesterday for a bit but it didn't last long. it was enough to water my garden though.

I am a little sore this morning after my near accident yesterday. My neck is hurting from the jolt of slamming on the brakes. I will get past it soon but for now, I am good. Did everyone enjoy their holiday yesterday? I pretty much sat here getting things sorted out and changing my office around. My office right now is the back room which is the storage room for the house but I am okay with it. It keeps me at the back of the house in a quiet place to write.

I will be posting another short story tomorrow on the site and look forward to finishing it. I am trying to get back into writing and I have been doing a little here and there and that is not my goal. I have alotted several hours a day for writing and starting to slip a little behind but I will catch up. If you are wondering why I can't stay on my schedule, it is easy to slip behind if you are going to doctor's appointments or running errands.

I will be getting it back together and doing what I am supposed to be doing whether anyone likes it or not, lol. I need to be doing for me. I and my happiness are what matters.

Well, it is time to get to work as I call it and I wish everyone a happy and safe day. Don't work too hard. Take care.

Wednesday, July 4, 2018

7/4/2018

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"Happy Fourth of July!" I hope everyone is enjoying themselves today and those barbeque's sure smell great outside. I know most people celebrated over the weekend with the cookouts and fireworks, but we did not have any plans for any of it. It was a money thing for us, but I would have enjoyed cooking up some steaks and hamburgers with all the fixin's.

I just got back from Walmart getting some Elmer's glue for clay making because I have been working on a project to take to the flea market. It is paper mache with some paper mache clay and I am molding it. I think they will come out pretty good.

Well, on my way home I was almost in a car accident because someone didn't know how to look before proceeding out into an intersection. I am doing the speed limit of forty-five and I see a couple cars waiting at the intersection when a box truck pulled up on the other side of one of the cars and then it seems like he waited for me to get right there before he slowly drove out into the intersection right in front of me.

I could see the driver who never even looked my direction and I began laying on my horn which didn't get his attention either. I slammed on my brakes, and I mean slammed on them because everything in the back seat ended up in the front seat to keep from hitting the side of this truck. There were witnesses if I would have hit him.

I hit the brakes so hard that it jarred my wrists which ache as I am sitting here typing. I got so shook up by it that I pulled over to get my composure and the two vehicles that saw what happened pulled over to check on me. It took a few minutes before I could drive again but then I continued on my errand running.

Usually, my husband rides with me, but he doesn't like going with me when I go shopping and using coupons, lol. He knows that if there is a good sale I will spend hours in the store shopping for that low price item. I used to be able to go into a store which has since closed down and could buy five-hundred dollars worth of food and spend less than two-hundred. It is still possible to get awesome bargains and I have been building my stockpile slowly but it is getting there.

Well, it is time to get some writing done to finish one of my books so that I can start with the editing process. I will be here again tomorrow, so I wish everyone a safe and happy holiday.

Thursday, June 28, 2018

6/28/2018

Hello everyone! I am glad to be back here posting to everyone. I had been really sick for a bit due to an unknown cause. Once before I ate some chili cooked by another person and the next day the top of my stomach hurt really bad and then severe watery diarrhea began with mild nausea and vomiting. Well, I finally got over that a few days later, but the other night a different person cooked some chicken alfredo and the same thing happened again the next day. This time it was more severe with moderate nausea and a lot of vomiting. I have not been able to conclude the reasoning or what the coincidence could be between the two that made me so sick.

I just got over a couple days ago but I am still dealing with some vomiting but not as severe. I am almost back to normal now and I can now resume with my everyday goals and daily living. So, I am back posting and writing my books and even doing some arts and crafts to sell at the local flea market. Things are starting to calm down now that I have set some boundaries for myself due to having a lot on my plate.

My sugar has been doing awesome and within range for the past several days and I now have my diabetic shoes and discharged from wound care now that the ulcer on the bottom of my big toe has healed. It is a relief to get the cast off my foot and be able to walk in normal shoes. I went to see the podiatrist yesterday who checked my feet and I do not have Charcot's foot but I do have hammer toes which caused my toenail to fall off twice because I am walking on it instead of my toes.

My mental health is improving but not fast enough because there is a lot of trauma I have to deal with and in three weeks when I go back to see my therapist we are going to start dealing with and processing some of it. I never dealt with stuff when it happened and just locked it up inside and now it is time to get rid of it and clean out the closet.

Well, back to work writing and telling my stories. I am still on track with beginning editing this next week. My goal is to have these two books published by the end of the July and out to the public. I am still looking for readers to give feedback so if you are interested drop me a message or comment on this post. I hope everyone has a great day and be blessed. Take care.

Saturday, June 16, 2018

6/16/2018

Good evening everyone. it is about nine forty-five at night and I did my first author table at the local flea market which I didn't sell any books but that will not frustrate me. I actually got a third of a chapter written while I was there. I just need to publish more books to have at my table.

I did get a few good comments about me being an author and that was enough to give me hope for a brighter tomorrow. I know it will take some time but eventually, I will get there to selling more books. Today encourages me to keep pressing forward.

I was exhausted from the heat when we got back today and needed a couple hour nap from having to get up so early. Tomorrow is another day and a new day for getting my brand out there. I plan on publishing some more books next month so it will get better.

Other than that, I will be going to bed soon because five-thirty comes early and fast. My husband goes with me to show his support of my writing which I love that about him. It might seem stupid or senseless but to me, it is a way for me to tell my stories. Even if I never sell one book which I have sold quite a few paperbacks and audiobooks, I will build a library for me to look back on and remember that it was me who wrote them.

Well, it is time for me to say goodnight so that I can get ready for tomorrow. I hope everyone has a good and safe night tonight. Take care.

Friday, June 15, 2018

6/15/2018

"Happy Friday!" It is a beautiful morning outside, the sun is shining which is a good thing because the rain was getting to be too much. The weekend is here for a lot of you which is a good thing and I know you are waiting for the clock to finish your shift at work.

I transplanted the rest of my garden from pots to the ground and upon checking on them this morning they are all perked up and growing strong. We just got back from dropping someone off at work which I had to get up at six this morning, bummer. Some of my tomato plants are beginning to flower and the rest are doing their best to grow. I still need to get my pumpkins and watermelons in the ground before the end of this month.

I manage to get fifteen hundred words of my next short story done yesterday which made me happy. I write short stories of about five thousand words which became too much to write in one day and be able to get things done around the house. So, I broke it down to fifteen hundred words a day for three days to write one story. It looks like I will be posting a short story every three days for each page of my site.

I just returned from my primary doctor's appointment and had mentioned about my treadmill exercise which was good in her opinion. She gave me hope that if I lose enough weight, my diabetes could eventually disappear. That would be great and I know I am on the right path to achieving that goal. I came home and jumped right on the treadmill to get my time done for today which right now is a quarter mile every day. I am starting out slowly because I have been sedentary for many years.

Well, I need to get going on the rest of my goals for today since I got a late start with doctor's appointments and everything. Have an awesome Friday and welcome to the weekend.






Thursday, June 14, 2018

6/14/2018

Good morning everyone. What a nice gloomy day outside and a little on the cool humid side. My garden is loving the rain but I am not happy due to arthritis and the pain I feel during a storm. I woke up about an hour ago and just finishing my first big cup of coffee and have taken all of my medications for this morning. Sorry for not publishing my post from yesterday until this morning. That is what happens when you get pulled away on I need a ride here, that turns out to be a four-hour sit in the car and wait, which I will never do again.

People take my kindness for a weakness and they will find out real soon that it is definitely not a weakness. I have a heart and compassion but it will not be taken advantage of. My experience with homeless people has made me realize that I get more respect from them than I do some people around me. Not including the two roommates I have.

I have realized that I do have too much on my plate and will be making some corrections. One of my roommates has taken care of one lump of it, but I will only be cleaning the house twice a week with laundry. My husband will help out on the other days because it takes too much of my attention and then I am working with my other roommate to fix the issues we have but it is getting better.

Yesterday's joy ride for four hours kept me from completing yesterday's goals, so today I will be getting all of my goals accomplished today and every day from here on out. I cannot take care of other people when I cannot even take care of myself in the daily sense of things.

My writing makes me happy and my husband has noticed that when I am not writing, I am miserable because it is the one place I can go to get away from everyday stressors. I feel like I am dying a slow death when I cannot write and be creative. My doctor thinks the same things as well. Everyone sees a difference that are close to me and knows that writing is what keeps me alive.

So, I will end and publish this post now and get to work, I have paper mache to do to get them done for next weekend since this week was a complete washout to have them for this weekend. I wish everyone a great day and be blessed.



6/13/2018- Forgot to publish yesterday :(

Happy "Hump" Day to everyone! The weekend is almost here and I know I am ready because I am tired of hearing my phone ring from telemarketers. I have been up since seven this morning unexpectedly but I am doing okay. I went to the eye doctor and will have new glasses in about seven to ten days. I have another appointment I have to leave for in about twenty minutes. I had my coffee and now it is time for something cold to drink.

It is a gloomy day outside with a strong chance of rain. The wind is picking up and the sky is gray. Hopefully, I can get to the doctor's office and back before the rain comes. I hate driving in the rain because people here don't know how to drive. The news will call for a severe thunderstorm and the town freaks out by rushing to get water and enough supplies to fill a bomb shelter. It is a bit hilarious.

I have had a few bad days with my mood swings because I again have not been getting enough sleep, even with medication. I just got back from seeing the doctor and again a change in medication which makes me feel like a guinea pig. Some of them have stopped working for me and we are on to higher doses or completely taken off of them and put on something else.


Friday, June 8, 2018

6/8/2018

Good morning everyone. I finally slept in until eight o'clock this morning and still feel a bit tired but I will wake up more here shortly. I am sitting here looking out my office door and see the sun shining and the baby squirrels making a racket. My dogs love chasing the squirrels and hearing the babies drives them crazy.

I had a talk with my husband last night and we agreed that I put everything aside and get back to writing where I am most happy. He told me that there is nothing stopping me from writing except me. The conversation went into "Who is going to take care of the house?" He said that there were other people in the house that could take care of it also.

He is right to a point that no one is stopping me from doing my goals every day except me and that I shouldn't put the whole burden of taking care of the house on myself because it will burn me out and I will never get anything done. There is a reason why I put daily goals on myself and there are quite a few sad faces on each page because I am never able to complete everything.

My new goal is to complete my tasks each day and make sure I come first. If I am not happy then everyone around me will sense it and then my day goes to crap. I even had a goal to post a short story every three days and that hasn't even happened so I have to update that schedule so that I can get them done too.

Today is a new day and new things will happen. I just have to have faith in myself that I can get everything done and be happy again. So, I wish everyone an awesome Friday and that everyone has a good day at work. Take care.




Thursday, June 7, 2018

6/7/2018

Good morning to all my friends and family. Another gorgeous day outside and I love watching the sunrise. I have been up since five o'clock this morning again and got the house cleaned early and checked on my garden which I do have some more transplanting to do. We got a burn permit yesterday to burn some of the brush that we have been cutting while pruning trees and shrubs.

I am now getting ready to start shredding paper for my paper mache plaques. I am going to get started with my arts and crafts for the flea market. I have most of the essential items needed to get them almost completely done. I will post pictures of them on the site for sale as well and remember twenty-five percent of the profit will go to charity to assist the homeless and needy families.

I also just got done dusting my stockpile of food and hygiene supplies that I have bought with coupons. Big bottles of Sweet Baby Rays barbeque sauce usually sales for two- thirty-nine and I got each bottle for sixty-seven cents, so I bought thirty bottles for my stockpile. I love couponing!

I have checked the sales papers for the deals where almost everything will cost me a dollar or less. I have been buying Glucerna shakes to help with my sugar and it has been working really good, especially when my sugar dips real low. I have found that when I am active or exercising, my sugar stays low so that means if I keep it up I could take less and less insulin and maybe even be able to come off the insulin. I found out yesterday that I have lost nine pounds in the last week and it feels good.

Well, time to go to finish what I have been doing. I have been working on my marketing and sales of my books and audiobooks have slowly picked up but I need to be more aggressive with marketing if I want to see a steady flow of income. I hope everyone has a blessed and prosperous day. Everyone with a birthday today I want to wish you a very "Happy Birthday". Take care.

Wednesday, June 6, 2018

6/6/2018

"Good morning to everyone!" It is such a beautiful morning here in Georgia. I am sitting here next to an open back door and I can hear the birds chirping, people going to work, and seeing the sunshine through the trees. The dogs have been fed and the house cleaned. I have had my coffee and now I am drinking some ice tea and my meds have been taken also.

Mentally I am doing good so far and feel good knowing that I will accomplish things today and be happy about it. I went yesterday to the doctor and got fitted for my diabetic shoes and don't have to wear a cast anymore. I will have my shoes in about two weeks which I am excited about. I still have a mild deformity in my feet and the shoes will help slow the progression.

My husband has been up with me since I got up about six o'clock and will be helping me with my garden and pruning some trees. I will hopefully be planting my pumpkins and watermelons today or tomorrow. My potato and tomato plants are getting so big, and the onions are sprouting very well also.

I have been getting my coupons organized in their books and already have a stockpile started with hygiene supplies and some shelf stable food. I will be going shopping again on Monday for local sales and using the coupons to save money. I usually on a big shopping trip with a mega sale get about five to six hundred dollars worth of food for about one-hundred to one-hundred and fifty dollars.

Well, it is time to get some things done and accomplished and hopefully my day will be a great one. If your birthday is today, "Happy Birthday" and to the rest of you, have an awesome and blessed day. It is "Hump Day". Take care.

Tuesday, June 5, 2018

6/5/2018

Good morning everyone. It is about five o'clock in the morning here and I could not sleep anymore. I went to mow the lawn yesterday and slid enough down a slope that it twisted my back a little and then I quit. My husband finished the rest while I laid down. I ended up falling asleep and waking up approximately ten last night but still went back to sleep after taking my medication.

I had to use the bathroom and that is why I am up now and still a little woozy from medication. My husband just got up to have coffee with me and we are sitting here with the back door open feeling the coolness from outside. It is now just becoming light outside and very pretty to see. I have not been up like this in a very long time.

I am getting my day started early so that most of it can be directed towards writing and finishing some of it up. I have to play catch up a little but it is okay I know I can do it. I have a few short stories to catch up on and will begin making my masks today for the flea market. Some will be 3-D creations and I will have fun making them. It will be paper mache with a plaster of paris finish.

Well, I need to get moving so that everything can get accomplished. I wish everyone an awesome and prosperous day. Take care.

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

05/30/2018

Hello Everyone, how are you doing this evening? I am doing okay as of the moment. I have another cast on my foot but I go get fitted for diabetic shoes next week and will remain in the cast until I have shoes to transition to. My pain management doctor was too busy and behind in patients so I rescheduled for tomorrow morning.

I came home after sitting at a railroad crossing for two hours while a train just sat there. I had no snacks and was starving. I got home and grabbed the two cold cheeseburgers in the fridge. I am now sitting here eating some chocolate cookies and drinking iced tea. I am about ready to get some writing done and relax for the night while engulfing myself in my stories.

My husband is playing his video games trying not to get aggravated by everyone interrupting him. He uses the video games to help with his mood swings but when people keep bothering him it does nothing for him except make his mood swing worse and last longer. I love him even with his mood swings.

Well, there is company in the house and I need to get up from here and do some things to occupy my mind. I wish everyone a great night and I will post again tomorrow. Take care.

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

05/29/2018

Good evening everybody. I am so thrilled to be able to post today. I have had a stomach virus for the past six days. I had to allow it to run its course and today it is not so bad. I got tired of diarrhea and vomiting all day. Oh, and the abdominal cramps were not nice either. Just the smell of food made me want to vomit. My poor husband couldn't figure out how to make me feel better or more comfortable but he tried and I'll give him credit for that.

I seem to have everything in place now and can move forward again as I have been trying to keep things positive and forward as long as I could stay out of the bathroom. I made some forms and tracker sheets to keep me accountable for everything. They are doing a great job. I am a list person. I have to have a to-do list made every morning while drinking coffee so that I know what has to be done so that I can keep track in case of brain farts or memory loss.

I will be finished writing my first book this week and my second book will be done before the middle of next week. Editing is always the fun part as far as I 'm concerned. My red pen is my friend for three trips of reading. I usually go through three personal edits before sending it to the editor. I want my work to be good and easy on the editor.

I missed my wound care appointment today but got it rescheduled for tomorrow afternoon and my foot is finally healing up. I still have mild Charcot foot but the plan is with my diabetic shoes it should slow down the progression. My appointment for shoe fitting is next week and I can't wait.

I have been walking a quarter of a mile every day on the treadmill to lose some weight and make myself healthier. It seems to be working but I have to start out slow because my body is not used to being active. My sugar is getting better and my A1C has come down which everyone at the hospital is happy to see.

I will possibly be doing a sleep study soon because of that Febreeze incident which has every one of my doctors concerned. It even scared me to death that I almost poisoned myself. Well, things are good so far and my mind is trying to reset itself so my creative juices can flow again. For my author table at the flea market, I have made laminated bookmarkers, brochures, and I have a stack of all my books. I am hopefully going to go next weekend providing it doesn't rain everything out.

I hope that everyone had an awesome Memorial Day weekend? I sat here at home sick with the virus and getting things done like organizing my notebook and setting up my book publishing goal. I am very happy mentally, emotionally, and physically right now but it is time to publish this post and move on to something else. Take care everyone and please leave me any comments which I will respond as soon as possible. Good night.



Monday, May 28, 2018

05/28/2018

"Happy Memorial Day, everyone!" I, first, want to thank those who sacrificed their lives in order to give us freedom and the choice to live how we choose to. Today is the day to remember all those who never made it back and gave their lives. It is also a day to remember those who did make it back but remember the horror of seeing their buddies die in front of or next to them. If you know or see a person who has been through war, shake their hand, salute them, or just say thank you.

Next, I would like to thank everyone who has been following my posts and leaving their comments of good feedback. I appreciate each and every one of you. I love the fact that you all can relate to some of my postings and I want you to see that just because I'm an author, I am also a real person with real everyday issues. I write these postings not only to vent or help me therapeutically, it helps to make it more personal to everyone and to gain a closer more personal relationship with my readers.

Yesterday I did manage to accomplish a few things like getting all of my bookmarkers done and trimmed, my posting here, my coupons clipped and organized which I am also an extreme couponer, and I finished the one chapter I had been working on. I still have three chapters to go to finish the book and the second book is coming nicely.

I have been keeping up with my postings every day and that also makes me feel accomplished. Sadly, it is time for this post to end so that other things can be done. I wish everyone a happy and safe holiday. Take care.

Sunday, May 27, 2018

05/27/2018

Good morning everyone! I am just here waiting for Alberto to come through and dump all that rain before I transfer my plants to the ground out back. They are growing so nicely. I just got up a few minutes ago after being up most of the night with an upset stomach. Things are good with me so far because I am not hurting as much as I was yesterday so hopefully I can get some more writing done.

I was actually able to finish one chapter in one book and now only have three chapters left to write to finish that book. The other book is pretty much just beginning but it will be simple enough to write and will be a novella. It will be fun to write because I find several of the situations to be quite funny. I have several short stories that will be put into an erotic book.

I am up and sitting in my recliner ready to write but have a few things left to create for the flea market table. I will be posting a list of future titles on the site for everyone to know what books will be coming out next and to tantalize the avid reader.

It is now time to get to work and I will definitely be posting again tomorrow and I hope everyone has a great day and don't party too hard.

Saturday, May 26, 2018

05/26/2018

Hello everyone. "Happy Saturday!" I'm sorry I am posting this so late in the day but I have been hurting all day with my hands and my lower back down to the bottom of my feet. It is part of my peripheral neuropathy which can become a pain every now and then. I am here now and that is all that matters, right?

I have been trying to write all day but with the excruciating pain in my hands and all over my body it has been a hindrance. After some medication and some rest, I am trying to get things together to write my books. I have the whole weekend with one extra day to work on them and get back on track. The goal for sending to the editor the first week of the month is still in sight as long as I can get a kick in my butt.

My husband has been trying everything to help me feel better and to encourage me to get writing but he understands that I am hurting. I go to pain management on Wednesday and hopefully the doctor can give me some extra relief. I feel debilitated sometimes but what can I do, I am disabled by my conditions both physical and mental.

I did manage to finish cutting my bookmarks and will be working on my author brochures for the flea market this weekend and the goal is to hopefully make the flea market next weekend to start getting my brand out there.

Well, I can only stand so much pain right now in my hands and will be here tomorrow posting again with more updates. I hope everyone had a great day and look forward to the barbeque's this weekend. Take care.






Friday, May 25, 2018

05/25/2018

"Happy Friday Everyone!" It is the weekend and a four day one at that. I just woke up about thirty minutes ago and I am on my first big cup of coffee. My husband actually woke up with me and sitting here trying to wake up with his coffee. I have just finished making my to-do list of things that need to get done today including my writing. I have a few days worth of writing to catch up on and short stories to write.

Again, I had broken sleep and there are bags under my eyes this morning. I woke up a couple of times last night. My husband wasn't aware of me sitting up but had all the chemicals locked away and there was nothing on my desk that I could hurt myself with unconsciously. I am up now and ready to start my weekend. We have no plans or grill to cookout with for the holiday.

I love when the weekend comes around because my phone won't hardly ring which is good for me. We really don't have any friends that would visit which is good too. I love the solitary life because it gives me the privacy and quiet to be able to write.

This will be a short post so that I can get started with things around here. I wish everyone an awesome Friday and be safe today because it will be crazy and people traveling plus drinking. Take care.

Thursday, May 24, 2018

05/24/2018

Good morning to everyone. It is not such a good morning for me. I feel like crap and there are bags under my eyes again. I went to see my psychiatrist yesterday and explained to her what happened yesterday morning. She seems to think that it is because of sleep deprivation which causes my oxygen level to drop which can cause me to blackout.

My husband and I are still concerned with these actions that happened yesterday so much that my husband makes sure all the chemicals are put away before I go to sleep at night. He can also feel when I get out of bed, so if I get up he wakes up to check on me or he sits up with m until I go back to sleep. This is how much he loves and cares about me.

I got up about three this morning and drank a glass of milk before going back to bed. I just woke up when my alarm for seven went off. I know I am tired but I have to force myself to stay up and get my day started to completion. I feel exhausted but I have to finish my goals to make myself feel accomplished even while facing sleep deprivation.

I am happy and self-satisfied when writing and even sat on the bed with my feet propped up writing one of my short stories and I felt good. I am trying to be positive about my health issues and continue working my goals. I am glad that I do have some support here in the household and hope that it continues.

Well, I have to run to the pharmacy for medications and then I will be back to check on my garden and then on to some writing. I need my writing to continue if I want to reach my goals. Well, I wish everyone an awesome and blessed day. Take care.

Wednesday, May 23, 2018

05/23/2018

     It's a cloudy and cool morning but very beautiful outside. It reminds me of a fall morning. Good morning everyone. I just got up and working on my first cup of coffee. My eyes are still droopy and I am still tired but I need to get my day started.
     I went outside and watered my garden but still have some plants that need to be transferred to the ground. I have a culprit who keeps trying to uncover one particular potato from the ground and I need to find out who it is. I have surrounded my garden with screen and stakes but someone keeps getting into it.
     After publishing this post, I have to write a short story on my site before taking a break. I am working my schedule the way it is written and planned out. The short story will be finished and published on the page A Taste of Romance & Erotica. I began writing it the other day but most of my short stories can be five thousand words and it takes some time to write especially when I get involved in the story.
     I had an incident early this morning that boggles my mind. I was sitting at my computer and after some cleaning last night I had left the Fabreeze on my desk next to my drink that I keep by the bed. I was groggy and then when I had realized it, I had the Fabreeze bottle to my mouth and some in my mouth. When I noticed it I spit it out and flushed my mouth repeatedly with water and then drank some milk in case I did drink some. I can't figure out how it happened and it scared me that I could black out like that.
     Anyway, Today looks good and I have an appointment with my psychiatrist for medication and I will be telling her about the incident this morning. When I come home, I will resume my schedule and get some writing done. I still have a chapter to write in two books and a short story for another book. My goal for this year is to have forty books published this year and it looks like I can reach that goal. I will have six published total in June. I have three published already and these three will make six.
     Well it is time for me to go and I wish everyone a great and blessed day. 👌👋


Tuesday, May 22, 2018

05/22/2018

     It is six-thirty in the morning here in Dalton, Georgia, so good morning everyone who is awake now. Good morning goes out to all those who will be getting up in a few hours. The sun is just starting to come up this morning and I look forward to the day. I have been having some mental health issues lately and saw my therapist yesterday who gave me some tips to cope with some of my issues and I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow for medication.
      It is quiet here in the house since I am the only one up and the dogs are outside. We went to bed early last night and I got up only a couple times during the night. I am finally catching up on some sleep and getting rid of the bags under my eyes from so much broken sleep.
     I have an appointment with wound care today to check the ulcer healing on my big toe and to put a new cast on my foot. June fifth I will be going to get fit for custom diabetic shoes and inserts to help my feet. The doctor at wound care told me that I will be in a cast until my shoes are ready. I am trying to comply with the doctor's orders but it is hard.
     So far I am working my schedule and it seems to get easier even with having doctor's appointments and errands. I still make time to play catch up. My husband has been very helpful and supportive even with helping around the house. I am very thankful that God sent him to me. I will be working all three books today and every day.
     I am also working on crafts to sell at the flea market which will help with my nonprofit. I will be setting up an author table and selling my books to get my name and brand out there. I have left business cards in doctor's offices and other places for people to pick up and be able to go to my site. I know it will take a few months before my brand is really out there and I see a significant income from royalties but it is okay. I will keep writing which makes me happy and is relaxing.
     Well, it's that time again for me to end this post and get started with today's goals. I wish everyone a blessed and awesome day. I hope everyone checks out my site and reads the short stories on there. Take care.

Monday, May 21, 2018

05/21/2018

     Good morning to all of my friends and family. It has been a rollercoaster of emotions for the last few days. Sometimes I have issues with remembering to take my medication. Things will get so crazy about having to drive here and go there that I will forget. So, the last time I took medication was on Thursday and It was the reason for a mental breakdown over the weekend.
     I was fine one minute and then began feeling bad and then the crying started. I would cry until I couldn't cry anymore and it made my husband feel bad because there wasn't too much he could do for me but hold me. There was a breakdown Friday night which was just crying, then the second one hit Saturday where the bad thoughts tried to creep in and then I needed a babysitter which was my husband.
     He wouldn't let me be alone at all with me feeling like I was. It was almost like being a prisoner at times but I am thankful that he was there. We ended up playing video games almost all night just so he could keep watch. I felt so much rage and anger and that is not like me. I do have a past of suicidal tendencies or self-harm but it was back in my teens. My husband helped me get through the weekend.
     Now that I am back on my medication and that he is helping me to remember I feel better and feel like myself again. I remember me telling him in one of the crying spells that I wanted to be normal but I couldn't and that medication had to control me and make me live the best that I can. I really think that it isn't fair that some people have to take medication just to live a somewhat normal life and perform normal everyday activities.
     On to a better subject. I have finished putting my binder together with procedures, goals, and habits that I want to get done and learn. My goals are simple and will hold me accountable for everything having to do with writing, editing, publishing, and marketing. I am a list person who has to write down everything to remind and tell me what I need to get done.
     Today I will be doing quite a bit of writing to catch up. I will be writing a full chapter of two books and a full short story for the third book. I love writing and even in my sleep the other day, I played out a scene for one of the books that hadn't even been written yet. I woke up and told my husband that I need to write because I was shown a scene while I slept. He just looked at me.
     It gets easier to write when I play out the scenes in my head or live it while writing. I get to find out a review of my first book today when I go see my therapist. She has had a copy of my first book for a month to read and today I will find out what she thinks about it. It is the first book of nonfiction series that if it all receives a good review, I would like to get together a support group and even travel around speaking to people dealing with these issues and even passing out books for them to read and maybe it will help them.
     It is now time for me to finish a short story on the site that I have begun and will finish today and publish on the site. I know it is Monday and some people don't look forward to it, but I wish every one of my family and friends out there a very awesome day to their work week. Take care.


Thursday, May 17, 2018

05/17/2018

     Hello Everyone. I am doing pretty good today. I had a doctor's appointment this morning to get things going to get my custom diabetic shoes and inserts. I will also be scheduling for a podiatrist and urologist for some other problems. Today I found out that my A1C has gone down quite a bit since February and that my liver and kidney functions are normal and working pretty good.
     My mental health status is doing okay. I go see my therapist on Monday and then the psychiatrist for medications on Wednesday. I still have issues with anxiety and sometimes my depression slips through but I have been trying to keep myself busy to try and not notice it.
     For the last few days, I have been working on my notebook that holds me accountable for my book writing. I finally finished it today and now I am ready to keep myself on track. My writing has been going good and pretty much on schedule. I am still looking for beta or proofreaders to assist with my book writing and publishing. Anyone want to help out just leave me a comment with your email address or email me at bpayne43@live.com. My next three books should be ready around the end of the first week of June.
     Well, I need to continue my schedule and move forward today. I wish everyone a blessed and prosperous day and look forward to posting again tomorrow. Take care.

Monday, May 14, 2018

05/14/2018

     Good morning to every one of my friends and family. How are we doing this morning? "Happy Monday!" It is the first day of the work week for most everyone and it will be a prosperous one. It will be in the low nineties today and yesterday was tiring. My husband and I moved our mattress to clean under the bed which we do every week and then we shared mowing the backyard so that I can start my gardens for potatoes, watermelon, and jack o lanterns.
     I have a doctors appointment this morning to do the paperwork for custom diabetic shoes. This should be the last cast on my foot since my doctor appointment last week. The ulcer under my big toe is finally healing and I will be glad to be able to walk normally again. It has been a long time since the ulcer popped un in February.
     Well to give you a writing update, I am finishing chapter six and beginning seven in one book, but the first chapter will be finished on the other book. I have some erotic short stories to write for a compilation book. I am also sending off permission letters for another nonfiction book. I am moving forward in a positive way with my writing. I have marked my writing calendar with the goals I plan to achieve.
     It is time for me to get started, but I wish everyone a great day. I will check in later so take care.

Saturday, May 12, 2018

05/12/2018

     Good afternoon everyone. It is beautiful outside and my garden is growing beautifully. The sun is shining and the wood bees are out in full force. Friday was my husbands birthday and I want to wish him a very happy birthday and welcome to forty-five years old. He is still young at heart just like I am. I am forty-seven but still act and feel like I'm still in my twenties.
     I got a lot of stuff done yesterday and still have quite a bit to do today. I am setting up my garden bed to put my potatoes in the ground today and if I have enough time, my watermelons and pumpkins will be planted today as well. I will be growing them by trellis to save space and when harvested I will be taking them to the flea market to sell for my nonprofit for revenue to assist in feeding and helping more people.
     I have placed my currently published books on this site for sale if you would like an autographed copy and it would be helping our cause to help end homelessness. If you would like to make a donation instead to help out that's fine too.
     I have been working on my books in progress and making very good time on them. The goal is to have all three done the first week of June and then the editing phase will begin. I usually do two personal edits before sending it to the editor. Creating my stories are my passion.
     I create my stories from everyday people and things around me. Even situations inspire me to write. I don't think I could be myself if I couldn't write. My husband knows how important writing is to me and fully supports me. I love him to death and would never trade him for anything. Well, it's that time again for me to get other things done. I wish everyone a blessed night. Take care.
     

Wednesday, May 9, 2018

05/09/2018

     Good morning my east coast and west coast family and friends. It is a glorious morning here today. The sun is shining and birds chirping. I have the dogs outside playing in the yard while I wake up and enjoy my cup of coffee. I have an appointment this morning to take our car for servicing and a car wash at the dealership. I will be there for a minute so I will be taking my laptop to do some writing while I wait.
     My foot is still in a cast and I have a doctors appointment on Monday to get a referral to have diabetic shoes made for my feet. I also get to see a pulmonologist in June for a strange cough I have had since August of last year. Every doctor I have been too said something different, so I want a lung doctor to find out.
     I have been working on my garden which is starting to grow now and I have five stalks of corn, five lettuce plants, tomatoes, onions, bell peppers, cucumbers, and carrots that have already broken ground and the seedlings are about three inches high. I am proud of my little garden and talk to them every morning as I give them something to drink. I will be planting watermelons and pumpkins next month to take to the flea market for charity.
     As far as my writing goes, I will be finishing up the first chapter of nine in one book, the sixth chapter of eleven in another book, and a short story for an erotic book I am working on. I have plenty to do and if everything goes right today those will be completed. I should have all three ready for publishing next month and then I will begin the next book. I have outlines already made for another thirty-nine books to be written and with faith, I will have most if not all of them done this year.
     Well, it is time to get going this morning because I have to stop and vacuum the car out before heading to the dealership. I wish everyone an awesome "Hump Day" and a blessed and prosperous day.